woke up pissed off,well i guess im just gonna have to drink more this time,i drink it last time and i started feeling sick as hell and started getting drifty,mabey i felt so sick because i have been starving my self,if i eat i eat fruit only, i weigh 100 pounds and my doctor says im under weight, but i dont see that wen i look in the mirrior,so i only got fruit in my fridge,monday im gonna buy diet pills to, im gonna damage my body because i hate it.i guess i dont really want to die yet, i am to scared, but if it was out of my control i wouldnt care,but i want to go in a deep sleep so i can escape for a while,
don’t hurt yourself, talk to someone that cares about you or get help from a professional
nobody gives a shit about me though.
useually when you are loved you stop yourself from hurting yourself because you know you are hurting someone els,but if noone cares then i shouldnt care about myself.
‘useually when you are loved you stop yourself from hurting yourself because you know you are hurting someone els,but if noone cares then i shouldnt care about myself.’
When someone loves us we don’t just live for guilt of hurting them though that might keep us around for awhile. Care about yourself as best you can so you can be around to feel loved again and to love others. At least you know you need love and that others need it too. It is vital. Sorry you are not feeling loved right now. If you know it is vital I hope you find the courage to go and search for that vital thing.
Reading your post I feel sad and I wonder who alienated you from your own body, your own life that you would want to mutiny it? I hope you strive for real love that does not carry expectations or violations that infect your life and your miraculous body.
find someone who cares about you and know what it feels like to be loved again