digging the tunnel

My usage of psychedelics, especially mushrooms is letting me slowly exit my chemical lobotomy and into a state of awareness and ability to have common sense, energy, endurance, drive, determination, willpower, intuition and able to reason, be assertive. Now that my level of consciousness is higher than it has been in the past several years flashbacks are getting more intense and distressing. I’m starting to realize how braindead and blind I really was in the past and I can’t describe what it’s like to be aware of this other than downright disturbing.