I just can’t deal anymore. Everyone says to “hold on” and “be strong”. But they do not walk in my shoes. They do not feel the pain I feel. They were not physically and emotionally abused in their childhood. They didn’t see their boyfriend of 6 years find a new girlfriend and the two of them crack jokes about me on Facebook, saying that I am lunch meat while the new girlfriend is steak….yet the ex-boyfriend calls and tells me the same week he not over me and wants to be friends and I am a great person.Â How can I be a great person if you and your girlfriend refer to me as lunch meat and refer to her as steak? Why do you even need to discuss me with her? Why do you have to hurt me in this way and many other ways?? Why can’t I escape the pain of losing you? Why do I still want to be with you and love you after you played me and disrespected me like that? Why am I so stupid? Why can’t I just die? Nobody cares anyway. They say they do because it’s politically correct. But they don’t really care. I should just fade to black. No more pain, grief, worry or tears. Just silence. Peace. Still. Calm.