You’re never going to actually read this, so I suppose I’ll post it here. I love you, I tried, I’m Sorry, Goodbye.
I’ve tried helping you with your problems, I wouldn’t dare see a pretty face with so much potential just disappear among the lives of the other, unnoticed and unloved. So many people try to be with you, but I know a secret, something you’ve only told me, some people, they think they know everything about you, but really, I’m the only one you told. Two months ago you were a stranger, just another pretty face in school, but then we talked, and we kept talking, that’s such a new feeling for me, to actually have someone I can express emotions with. I never expected a relationship, I never asked for one, you never asked either. I tried to help you, you let me walk through the door, but that was as far as you would let me go, I wanted to help you, but you wouldn’t let me do anything more than simply tell you I know. So now I’m here, I’ve been to this place many times, don’t think it’s because of a girl, because really, it’s my life. There’s never been anything right about it, even as a child, getting tossed from parent to grand parent to aunt, and back and forth,  it was no way to have a stable upbringing. So before you blame yourself, know I’m not doing this just because of you. You just helped me realize what I had to do. I thought I was holding on to help you, but really, I was just holding on to meet you and pass on my story. I know yours is similar, and you’re going through what I have, but even in death, I’ll be here for you, just call my name and I’ll be by your side. You’re beautiful Brooke, it’s on the inside, now this is my last hoorah before I go, and I don’t think you’ll ever read it. So I just want to say I love you, I tried, I’m sorry, Goodnight and Goodbye beautiful, may your life be better than the one bestowed upon me.
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If your going to say goodbye, you should let her know. Tell her that even when your gone, you’ll be there. Good luck to you in whatever decision you make.
~Zoe
I know I have to tell her, I just don’t seem to know what to say, I can word everything perfect when I talk to her, but now it’s like I have no clue. It’s really hard to talk when you want to kill yourself.
-will
Well maybe you could tell her whats in this post.
I know what you mean, talking about how your feeling when you feel so down is really hard.. Its one of the hardest things to do, actually sYing it outloud.
Maybe, if you want to talk, I can try and help.. I like mKing people feel better, it helps me . So if you have email. Send me one. zoebear_1@hotmail.com.
~Zoe
I’ve told her before that I was depressed, it was the same time she told me she was, but at the time I was doing really well, the suck part about my depression is that I can be completely normal, and then in a snap of your fingers it all switches, and i know whats going on, but I just can’t help it. I’m half heartedly thinking of just sending her the link to my post. I really just don’t know what to say to her. My email is franksonw@yahoo.com feel free to email me whenever. and thank you