I have no idea what to do. I just need some help, I guess.
So, here’s my story.
I’ve been battling depression & anxiety for 7 years now. I’m sure I’m not unique here.
I’ve also been fighting Interstitial Cystitis for 3 years. Basically, my immune system is trying to kill my bladder. I’m in constant pain. It feels very similar to giving birth. I can’t deal with the pain anymore, and there is nothing the doctors can do to stop the disease or the pain.
I just broke up with my boyfriend of nearly a year a few weeks ago. Not a problem. We just didn’t get along anymore, and it was my decision. No biggie. The problem is that he has a new girlfriend, and I’m here alone. I don’t want him back, and I’m happy that he has moved on, I just want to know why he got a new girl so quickly and no one seems to want me for anything more than a fuck buddy. (Which I do NOT do.) Lots of guys just want to get their dicks wet, but I want a real man in my life who loves me for me. Why does he deserve that and I don’t? I’m not ugly or anything, I’m actually a pretty good looking girl. Still, no one wants me. Why am I not good enough?
I have just been feeling so hopeless. I only have 1 friend in my life, but she is amazing. The problem is that she has lots and lots of friends, works 2 jobs and has no time for me. So, I’m always alone. I’m a college student, and my workload is intense. Most of the time i cant handle it.
So… I’m lifeless, loveless, and in constant pain. My mom tries to help, but i’m just a burden to her. I really just feel like giving up.