FUCK YOU

Things were starting to get better. It’s been almost two weeks since the last time I sliced myself. I finally told my dad to get me a therapist since my mom doesn’t give a shit. I guess my dad forgot about me again. Not a surprise, my family seems to forget about me alot. I even tell them I’m their forgotten child.
I really hate my family. Especially my mom. She thinks it’s hilarious to make fun of me. She’s over done it today. Haha very funny to make fun of your daughter in front of my dad and little brother. I always just tough it out and hold the tears but I couldn’t. It sucks how weak I’ve gotten. I always cry silently in the restroom now and come out like it’s nothing. This sucks. Why does my mom hate me? She knows im depressed. Ive gone back to faking the smiles again so she probably assumes im ok.
Im trying to quit harming myself but i cant..fuck. my lips look horrible from biting them. I seem to do that when i havent cut myself in a while.
I want this to be over for good. I want to go but I can’t hurt my best friend like that when she is struggling too. I know she will follow me if I go for good. Maybe that will take her out of this misery too.