how can i make it .

one guy, me, and love. the battle in life, love controls us. i never wanted to disaprear so badly until he came along… i love him. i want him but i cant have him, maybe thats why its all gone down hill.. i slit.. i cry.. everynight.. i never thought that growing up and falling inlove was so hard.. i was inlove before and told myself not to fall ever again… but then it happend, he made me feel like i could, like he would catch me.. we broke up because i was upset.. i got kicked out of my moms and house and she sent the cops after me saying i `left`i have texts of her kicking me out so i am safe to stay where i am. i told my teachers and they got me into guidence (for the leaving home) some days i try to disaprear but i dont want to give the sadisfaction to the bullys.. maybe i should mention more to the storie.. me and my ex broke up over my ex best friends who turned into bullys saying they needed me dead. that night i tryed.. i fight with people all the time.. im always the one saying sorry.. im sick of saying sorry to everyone.. if i was gone everything would disaprear…