TodayÂ I burried love. I dontÂ thinkÂ theÂ statment needs an explaination, anyone who has truely loved and lostÂ must know how It feels. For those who don’t imagine choking and trying to breathe yet your unable to, one must not confuse it with physical pain but the emotional pain which one is unable to overcome. But the post today isn’t really about explainations, this time i dont need them… burrying love doesnt have a justification, or an explaination.
This post is about questioning how must one go on, I mean what do i do now that the future seems to be becoming my past, tomorrow it will be just a hurtfull memory… how do i get up? how do i fuction… how do i get dressed and go out of the house? how am i ment to work and talk to peopleÂ ? how do i keep remainding myself to forget? how do iÂ live when im wishing to die; when im dead on the inside? where do i get the strenght to carry onÂ from? when i took pride in something thats gone. I feel like im so lost in this dark tunnel, and knowing my mentality i will never see the light again. Im scared that i wont be strong enough to apprehend the pain, that whilst burring my love i have burried myself, its just a matter of days before I will close my eyes and finally enternally rest. There will be no regrets, no pain no sadness, no emptiness , no sorrow no struggle to make another day …. just peace.