i was only being nice

Yesterday…I told myself, im going to be nice, im going to be a better person, and not mean. Well im not really mean. I just want to be a better person. I tried it today. i tried to better myself. But it didnt work. i tried to be nicer to everyone…but, once again, i’ve been hurt. Once again someone called me a man; well not nessarily. he called me a boy really, and everyone who heard laughed. Once again, i’ve been told i have a deep voice and sound like man. it’s like 10th grade all over again. i dont know how long i can deal with this kind of pain. I literally sit and cry in my room every day because this stuff. I know people go through so much more worse things, but i can’t help to cry about it.