Okay so when I first started this, I had not one thing to say on it. Now I have a slight idea…
When I first joined The Suicide Project I was lonely, depressed. I had suicidal thoughts running through my mind, tormenting me. I have attempted suicide 5 timesÂ so far.Â My memories haunt my every waking moment and I cut my wrists and upper arms so deep that the scars will never heal. I would cry because I hated myself so much, I hated my looks, I thought I was the ugliest person alive, my weight to me 7 andÂ a half pounds or 107ibs, I thought this was really fat, I thoughtÂ I was severly overweight so IÂ starved myself.Â (I still don’t eat properly but I have started eating again).Â Â I came here because I had no one to turn to, my best friend was suicidal like me and relyed on me more than I could take. I couldn’t talk toÂ anyone, I was scared to be a failure and too scared to let everyone down, Everyone deserted me except for the two people that I love the most because they came back, and then I found this website. I didn’t know what else to do, I was at breaking point so I just let it all out, I told my whole life story. It felt so great to finally get rid of the guilt,Â to finally release the feelings I had bottled up for so long.Â Some people commented and that was when I realised, there is people who care about me, there is people that would hurt if I left this world.
I’ve posted on here quite a few times now, when I’ve felt suicidal and quite a few people would comment, not because that’s what you have to do but because they cared enough to do that! I feel like now, I can come here and let my feelings out and someone might be there at the time and make me feel so much better. There’s been three times now that I have posted here on The Suicide Project when I have felt suicidal and everytime someone, somewhere has took my mind of it! Made me feel like I am loved, I am worth something to someone. It is a great thing that this website exsists because without it, I’d just be another kid who commited suicide. I know now that if I feel like absolute hell, I will come here and I will let it all out. If you do experience depression then it is a good idea to let out those feelings on this website because chances are there are people here that can talk to you about it because they feel the exact same way and have been or are going through depression too!
Thank you for your time, comment if you want, it’s upÂ to you 🙂