Messy life

First of all I would like to point out I left school about a year ago and I have been looking for a job and getting nowhere, had a couple of interviews but had no luck with that.
I live in a tiny village where I dont know many people so it means getting family to drive me 11 miles to town so I can meet my mates. Only problem is all my mates are guys, I don’t get on with girls. So because im only really interested in getting drunk Its usually with a few guys every week along with my older brother who drives. Im 17 so underage and anyway I just feel like my life is going down the drain. I sit at home all day watching jeremy kyle and then on the weekend i get so drunk i wake up with regrets and btw other people buy my drinks. So ive ended up having 3sums and going back to guys houses. That was untill one night i was out and i left the pub to meet my mate but on the way about 20 boys approched me and cut a long story short i got mugged and raped by 2 of them. After that i was teffified to leave my house for weeks but then you know what it just didnt stop me from going out and getting drunk again so i went to a party a few weeks ago but i ended up drinking far too much that i ended up passed out in my own sick and i was unconcsious so gave me a firemans lift and took me outside where people had to put me in the recovery posistion so i almost died basically it was actually worse than it sounds so after that i said ‘ im never drinking again’ the next weekend i went out drinking again, nothing can stop me. And this weekend my family are away so i had a secret party with boys round and ended up having sex with some guy and the next day i couldnt even walk. Now hes becoming all attached and obsessed with me.
But here is where my problem lies. Even though i know drinking is bad and makes me behave in a sluty way i still cant stop and i dont know where my life is heading. Even in school i would skive off and get drunk and end up passed out in fields by myself or i would take alcohol to school in a bottle. I even took it to college and left after the first week. I dont know what to do with my life, It seems so pointless and sad. Btw i had councelling many times and they have now crossed me offf the list. I drink because i feel so confident and i can talk to anybody and people even say they like me more when im drunk. I smoke aswell and i would do drugs aswell which is just wrong but Its like i just dont care about my life and people try to change me but they just cant. What an earth can i do to change my life around, i cant even get a job at tesco. I often wish i was dead to be honest.