I’m sorry I’ve been gone for a while. From now on, I’m going to try be a more frequent user on here. I want to help people as much as I can before I go.
I hope everything is going well with everyone.
I’m sorry I’ve been gone for a while. From now on, I’m going to try be a more frequent user on here. I want to help people as much as I can before I go.
I hope everything is going well with everyone.
Why is that people ask you not to compare your life with others at times and then take a complete U-Turn and ask to look at others life at other times? World always tries to find a way to influence your life, your decisions, they always want you to live your life as it best suits them. The reason for my decision is not my hatred of this world, or hatred for life – on the contrary its quite opposite – I love this world, I love life. But unfortunately, I don’t enjoy it anymore, I live everyday as its a burden – with a […]
Dammit I hate my grandparents!! I gotta get the he’ll out. I don’t even care about Florida right now. I need a fuckin escape, suicide, drugs, anything. Fuck life fuck people (not you guys… Sorry) fuck me. I don’t know why I’m still here. I’m a burden, a waste, and worthless. They won’t let me forget that. Shit I need an escape.
I’m new to this website. I’ve been suicidal for a few months now. It’s gotten so bad in such a short amount of time, and it’s scaring me.
You see, I don’t want to die. I really don’t. But it’s the only way out. I can’t leave my town, because I’m only 14. My mom won’t home school me. I don’t have one friend. I kept telling people how I felt, and then people stopped caring all of a sudden. They just stopped talking to me, and they stopped asking what was wrong. I have literally–absolutely– no one. My parents yell when I get depressed. My […]
All of my energy is gone. I don’t even have enough to WANT to kill myself let alone do it. I just want to sit here and wait for the glorious day he decides to take my soul. Sometimes I even with there was a school shooting and I got shot, just so people would notice and maybe care. Just so I could leave this world. If anyone wants a listener, I will be here waiting to die. I’m sorry, but I give up.
I need help.
But you need to know my story first. My mom got married for the second time in 2007. Everything was fine he was really nice and he had his own daughter who was younger than me and my sister. After 2 years everything started getting worst I’m going to 9th grade and he starts acting werid he tryed to beat my sister and she went off on him and told my real dad and he had a gone crazy too. But after a couple months he started to coming inti my room at night and well, doing stuff to me. This happened […]
Feeling really alone and stupid right now took an overdose paracetomol 80 tablets yesterday hasnt done anything but vomited pretty much non stop until this morning. I feel same way I do after every other time I take an overdose happy in a way to be alive and I think about future but then that subsides and thoughts if hoplelesness and feeling like a waste of oxygen comes back I just know Im juggling and eventually obe of these overdose will be the end of me and I just wish I could be stronger
hi, i’m only new on this site and this is my first post, i am a teenager and i often feel depressed and i cut myself i planned out my suicide and the note i would leave for my family but i never actually decided to go ahead with it. i get really depressed and everything seems 2 bring me down even when i’m happy i’m down i hope some people can relate 2 this and understand it. its like when i cut myself i can release emotions and i know i sound crazy but i don’t know who to talk to i hide my marks from […]
“My name is unimportant. I am neither male, nor female. My age has no relevance to my grief.
Consider me a faceless representation of depression. An anonymous death seeker. A hopeless nobody.”
I’ve spent my life doing everything for everyone. I worked my ass off for ungrateful bosses. I threw my social life away to finish worthless years of schooling. I pushed away possible love interests to better the odds of my friends. My entire life has been a waste of time. A waste of space on this decaying, dying world. There is no hope for mankind, and just the same, there is […]
I have known for a long time that my death would be at my own hands. This has never been a passing whim. I can’t remember the last time I didn’t want to die. I suppose that makes me a coward because I can’t face life. My fear of suicide is only that I will be unsucessful. I am house bound and have very little access to means to end my life and no one will see it my way and help me. My biggest regret is that I had children. I should have been more carefull with birth control because no child deserves a […]
Stopped feeling suicidal and just feeling numb. Numb but happier then I have been for awhile. Not sure if is a good thing though as my thearpist keeps telling me it is better to feel things and deal with them. I dunno what to think apart from the fact is it not good I’m not thinking about death for a change???
I wrote this just sitting here, singing with my nieces and thinking of my girlfriend 🙂
When you smile at me
My heart skips a beat
Could this be
I’m actually happy?
Your eyes are a light green
Prettiest eyes I’ve ever seen!
With skin the color of cream
I could mistake you for a queen.
With lips a soft pink
Oh, is that a blush on your cheek?
The days are so meak
Without you here to keep.
But I’ll see you again
Kiss every inch of your cream skin
And lose myself in those eyes of light green.
Signed: RunningInTheDark
Tobias Curry
Preventing suicide is like lighting a theater on fire and then blocking the exits.
cant sleep, cant eat, when i sleep i have bad dreams about the mother of my daughter who im sure by this point is seing someone else…Or dream about myself in horrible situations,…Im so down I cant even be around the part of my family that i love without depressing them away…i wake up just needing to cry but can only dwell, and roll around in cold and hot sweats, thinking about dying or just hiding somewhere for a long long time until i can get my mind right again, my skin crawls with nerves.. i get so depressed around people that i keep getting looked at […]
I’m at the edge of breaking into tears, at the edge of an hysterical attack… I want to scream and yell and hit the walls and bit my arms and just lose my self control for a little while. But right now I just can’t, I can’t go crazy in the middle of my class.
Today I’m having a down and it’s the worst, I’ve been feeling like crap since the very moment I woke up. I think that if I die, none of the ones around me will even notice, I’m nothing more than the shy girl who hides behind the anger and her phone […]
Everything will feel better when I’m back in Florida with my mom. I do want to die now but I’ve chosen to put it off. I want to see my mom again first. And when I’m there all of this will go away. And those who know I’m suicidal because of where I am now, my grandparents, being taken away from my mom ect., ask why I want to come back after summer. Because I do want to die. I want to kill myself so bad. But I’m not doing it there. I’m not going to kill myself in Florida, a place that has […]
I woke up yesterday morning ready to help and change lives, but I can’t do it. My feeling is gone, and I’m hoping I just drift away. I’m sorry, but I give up, there is just way too much negative than postive. Why do we even want to stay in this cruel world? It’s NOT a paradise, it’s full of pain and people telling you you’re worthless and not giving a shit about you dead or alive. I’m sorry but I’m giving up. I’m just going to sit here and wither away with the rest of my sad dark life. May the words in my […]
my friend knows about this site and read all my posts..hes trying to help tho..which im thankful for…hes a good friend and i take him for granted and i shouldnt do that…. ugh.. my family is a pain..the other day at lunch my sister was like “i think she’s bulimic and anorexic, she never eats” the thing is i actually am… ugh i wanted to cry… fucking life sucks…
i need help.. i know i do.. i hate admitting it tho… i had another nightmare lastnight… about me being locked in a white room, nothing else in it but me.. i went insane… i hated it… […]
I dont know why i am writing to this place, but im going to end this existence in 2 days. I going to to this by hanging because it seems quite peaceful way to go besides of jumping and cutting. Â I have read i think to many news and personal stories and i really do know what i am doing. I have a job and a loving family but i am an idealist, like my psychiatrist said and i just cant live like this anymore. My body i just a burden to me, i have tried everything to fix my life, make it near ideal […]
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Remember, it all starts with YOU.
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