Do you see the light
At the end of the tunnel
Is it bright?
Come on now don’t fumble.
One slow step at a time
You can make it
You’ll be fine
Come on go bit by bit
You’ve reached the gates
Is it what you thought it’d be?
Look it’s the three fates
Dancing to sad symphonies.
Will you be waiting for me through the strife?
The comes with hell
I think it’s time to pay the price of life
Death come take my soul without fail.
6 comments
RunningInTheDark, You scare me. You are definitely dancing in the dark. But, you have so much talent. I don’t want to see you take that talent from this earth. Is that too selfish of me? I guess you may be hurting too much to want to stay and share your gift with everyone. I appreciate your feelings. I have had them myself. But, I still want you to keep writing your poetry. I want you to stick it out and not give in to the spirit of suicide. I want you to stay around until you feel better. I believe you will eventually. Whenever I have had depression and have not been on medication, my depression lasted 4 or 5 months. That seemed like an eternity. I finally figured out that if I got on some medication maybe I could avoid another episode and it worked. I would never and could never believe that it would help while I was depressed, but it did. Depression is a terrible sickness. What can I say to you and others who feel the way you do? I don’t want to sound naive. I don’t want to make light of how you feel. I don’t want you to feel like I’m giving empty encouragement, empty promises. I know it isn’t easy. All I can say that I hope will come across in a positive and genuine way is that I care and I have some understanding of what you are feeling since I have felt it too. It has to be similar. I hope you keep writing poetry and get mad at that spirit of suicide that tries to draw you into its mystique. It’s a liar. You are talented. Thank you for sharing your talent and please keep doing so. Let me and those of us on this blog know what we can do to support you. You are among friends. I appreciate you and your experience.
Ahhh this is one of those posts i wish i could hit a ‘like’ or ‘love it’ button, i am for the moment without words (it happens from time to time) all i can say isits such a beautiful poem, you have a way with words., if you are anything like me you will have bits of paper floating about all over with both finished and unfinished poetry on.
@Kara – from reading your posts, you offer such encouragement, such hope its hard to believe your not a personal cheerleader.. Its hard to believe you have been in this dark place some of us are still in. I can tell from your posts you are a very intelligent and very caring person you hate to see ANYONE hurt and despise upsetting people.
It’s true. Thanks much for your acknowledgement. =)
I see alot of myself in you and your posts. On good days i could jump and leap and pick daisys see the besuty in the world, help people offer encouragement and support.
But well bad days are pretty darn terrible.. A couple of days ago i had 120 painkillers, 1 packet sleeping pills a bottle of wine to wash em down with, my anti deps.
Had them all laid in a circle in order of size and colour..
I tricked myself into believing i didnt have enough and the next day baught another packet of sleepers and another packet of painkillers.
Bad days are pretty bad, i hear stuff thats not there that no one else can hear, i spent an hour looking for a phone that was ringing only to find i had my phone in my pocket..
Thank you guys so much. You are all fantastic. My “episodes” don’t last very long but when they do come they are absolutely dreadful. But I think you both for liking my poetry, and I hope to post happier more thoughtful works in the near future 🙂
Thanks RunningInTheDark. We will look forward to your future poetry posts. =)