hello everyone
it often happens to me,before sleeping, suddently i feel depressed ,sad ,feel like i’m about to cry,
each time , just before sleeping, i pray, i hope, please god make that nothing of this real, just let me sleep for ever. but each morning i wake up.
i feel i don’t fit in this world, i don’t know why do i persist in living this life.
i’m a cower, i’m not able to commit a suicide.
there’s my family , i know that killing my self will be devastating for them,
i want to feel like when i’m sleeping, then i do not feel anything, i DO NOT exist at all.
i know that something’s wrong with me, i don’t feel like a normal person, i have a couple of “friends”, but i
don’t know how to interact with them, i never did. so they are not really friends , i have no friends. i don’t know how to live in society at all, though i’m in a
good shap, i’m a maths student, financially i’m doing good.
with other’s i act like everything’s all right. i good at it.
one would say, stop complaining. you should see those who are really suffering. i totally agree with that.
i hate feeling this way, right now my eyes are wet, i feeling numb, like there’s a deep hole inside.
i feel i’m about to go crazy, cause i don’t feel like i really exist,i feel this every moment of my life.
i feel like i’m in a kind of a fake life, fake world. maybe it really is.
sorry if i did some mistakes
1 comment
You are not alone…I feel the same. You’re doing your best. Choose to feel good for you, as best you can. You are the most important person to you…focus on feeling good for YOU, I understand how you feel but if amidst the strangeness and the unreality of things, place your attention on what it would be like to feel good. Facing your reality will not help so create happiness inside as best you can. It may seem unrealistic or not possible…but if you practice it, it will lift your spirit a bit. Take care.