In church, they tell you that porn stars are girls who have completely shattered lives and who behave in ways to find reassurance from men; girls who are desperate for love and for Jesus.
Wanna know the truth? I have the love of Christ, and am thankful for it. I have friends and family who I trust, and an adoring fiance. Know why I star in porn? Because there’s no other fucking way to make enough to live in this shitty country. Tell me how to get even a minimum wage full-time job in a tiny college town, or anywhere, really. Better yet, tell me how else I can make $600 in two hours. My food stamps were denied, because I’m a student and don’t work 20 hrs a week between my three jobs. I’m in over $5,00 in student debt, and I’ve been living on almost no food in order to keep my crappy studio apartment. My fiance’s a college grad in Biochemistry, and he’s been looking for work for a year. Don’t try to tell me getting paid to touch myself isn’t a provision from God. I just want to make ends meet, and maybe even have a real wedding.
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People like to say a lot of bad things about things they don’t understand. Screw em. I don’t see anything wrong with being a porn star and $600 for 2 hours is more than I make with a masters degree. Just take care of yourself honey, and don’t let them put you down.
Who cares about others? In the grand scheme of your life, they don’t matter. To you, the one whose opinion you should care about is your family’s, fiance’s and friends’. They have probably never experienced being in your position so all they can do is let their mouths run and their brains rot. Hey at least you have a job and doing something out of your life. I’m jobless, aimless and have no purpose except to wonder if I’m even worth anything. So leave those people to their crowing. You said it yourself, you have the love of Christ. You don’t need the love of those idiots.
The reason is that only a person in pain understands what it is like. No one else does, which is the reason why. Society has always treated this as wrong which is why it is still seen as this. But never care about your environment- if they don’t care for you, if they don’t care whether your alive or dead. It’s pointless letting them put you down
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I work 72 hours a week to take home just over twice what you make in 2 hours. God I wish i was born a female.
What movies have you been in? Are you looking for a co-star?
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A link to your work would be nice.
I’d like to experience the love of Christ as well.
Thanks, guys. I feel a lot better about it now.