a struggle with growing apathy .. to have little concern for too many things .. to live life in autopilot mode, doing things because youâ€™re used or expected to and rarely because you desire to .. your soul is disconnected from this 3D reality, you have a wandering mind and your body is what keeps you trapped in a world you donâ€™t want to be a part of
Iâ€™ve been living this way for 4+ years and Iâ€™m truly fed up with being half a zombie half a robot .. Iâ€™ve done a lot of introspection to find out Iâ€™m only interested in two things: total freedom and truth .. in my opinion, those can only be experienced when youâ€™re out of this world
my one and last goal will be to leave somewhere before February 2013 .. until then, Iâ€™ll be doing my best to erase whatâ€™s left of my ego, because ego cannot digest the idea of its own death and would trick me into staying here
I donâ€™t hate life itself nor this planet .. I believe life on here could be a more stimulating experience if I wasn’t part of the human species .. I’ve grown to dislike life as a human being, the main reason being the lack of ‘humanity’ .. humans are the virus of this planet and I know I’ll only find peace when Iâ€™m no longer part of the problem (excuse the misanthropic tone)
even if the behavior of us ‘modern’ men could all be explained by science, Iâ€™d have to ask this: have you heard of animals killing other animals if they arenâ€™t hungry nor aware of some direct/indirect threat ? (Iâ€™m not an expert on the question, I’d really like to know)
I was watching some vids on snakes the other day and learned a python and green mamba wonâ€™t kill their usual prey if they arenâ€™t hunting. Iâ€™m tempted to believe those predators have more respect for life than the average human
anyway … 2013 baby !