I’ve done it.I think I finaly got rid of the only two “friends” that still talked to me.I kept rejecting their proposal to hang out.It’s been about 2 weeks that I haven’t seen them.
No more stupid talk
No more going along those stupid talk
No more people trying to change me at all cost
No more fake smile
I am 100% alone now.
Man it just feels so stupid to write this for everyone to see.I wish I could burn my mask but I’m too much of a coward to do so.I’ve goten so affraid of being rejected by people that I’ll surely use it forever on…My mother started noticing my pain…She’s the only one that noticed but she’s 5 years too late.Anyway,she’s another of those people I hate so much,trying to change me to fit their own little tastes.
Why do i keep writing this…I wanted to be alone no?I feel like such an attention whore every time I post something.I’m just running away from reality,hoping for an internet life to comfort me.
I’ve always thought “home” isn’t your house or anything like that.To me,”home” is when your the most happy.It doesn’t have to be a place.To me “home” is when you find where you belong and no matter where this “home” is,you’re willing to follow it because whatever happens,you’ll be happy.
I think my “home” burned down a long time ago or maybe…There wasn’t any for me in the first place