I just wrote an angry hate letter to basically the whole ‘class of 2012’ at my school that I will never send. It was supposed to make me feel better, but came out more like a suicide note so I don’t know what that indicates… I am quite pleased with the closing line, though:
“Just know that actions have consequences and you have managed to massively dent one person’s faith in humanity and that is unimaginably dangerous and now too late.”
Writing that letter did make me wonder who at that hell of a school would care if I went through with it, if this subconscious suicide letter became a real suicide letter… No one would really care, I’m guessing, you’d get a few fake mourners and maybe my few real friends and maybe my RE teacher would genuinely be sad for a while, but then people would get over it. I’d just be a bad memory of a messed up girl and everyone would forget that my death was partly a result of the pure hatred in my heart for most of them.
But if I did go through with it, it would be for me and not for them. I am an incredibly kind and unselfish person, so my first and last selfish act may well be the most selfish act imaginable. Thing is, the future has become so scary and hazy and unimaginable that I’m not sure I want one at all. If I went through with it, I’d be doing it to leave my past and escape my future.
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I completely agree! Today one of my teachers told me that I had not yet ordered a year book. In my head I was like “I hate everyone in my school! Why would I want to remember them!?”
Indeed your closing line is well written.
If I learned something so far is that kindness is an uneeded thing for most of the world.I know it’s horrible to say that but well…
People walk over kind ones and take advantage of them yet true kindness is so rare nowadays.
Same, khajiit! Everyone I know is getting a yearbook except me, I just don’t want a book full of photos of people I stronglu dislike and never want to see or speak to again! Exactly TarotXIII I’m tired of everyone thinking that I’ll happily go along with whatever they want, no matter whether I actually want to. I’m not exactly a pushover, I just haven’t seen any point in getting in an argument until now. My dark, mean side is finally coming out now, so that could be interesting…