I’ve found a little bit of hope…

Whilst doing my daily moping on the internet, i found the registration for an intensive performing arts camp at my local college. The whole day I had been overly depressed as always, but as soon as I saw this it brightened. I immediately started to get the things for my audition ready, and  practicing. I think that if I keep my mind set on my career and other things it might keep the depression from controlling my life. I know, I know. “How can you go from being so suicidal one night, to now being so full of hope”. I did a lot of thinking about things, and really, what’s the point in wasting my life wishing I was dead and being depressed when I could be doing such wonderful things with my talent. Yes, this attitude might not hold up for long, but I’m going to put forth some fucking effort for once and get over the past. Even if things are going on now, I need to find different ways to cope with them, and I need to stop trying to die. While I’ll most likely still be depressed, I need to get something out of life for once. I’m not going to let my problems get in the way of my career, and yes, I’ll most likely still have that little speck inside of me that wants to die when something sets me off, but I’ll get over it. Hope this works xx