Looking For Happiness

Hey guys,I haven’t really been this open about my problems,but I feel like I need to find emotional support.Here’s what’s going on:First of all,there was this guy that I really cared about.We dated a little over a month.When we first talked,I actually thought that he was such a good guy when I didn’t even know that it was an act.Anyway,around the last part of the month,he didn’t see me for two whole weeks when he usually stops by every week.He told me one night that he was done looking for someone because he found me.So,I gave him the benefit of a doubt that he was actually working late like he said he was.Then,the day when he came by,I thought that we were going to work out the problems we were having.I was wrong:he broke up with me.He wanted us to be “friends” for now,but some friend he was.He didn’t even bother to be there for me when I needed him.He didn’t make an attempt to go to my graduation.He even lied saying that he was in another state the past week.Funny thing was the day of my graduation,we passed by his work place.He was there.We got into two bad arguments.We’re not speaking anymore.What really bothers me was that I was really into him and for him to treat me like that,made me feel worthless to him.It hurts when he’s in my dreams because that tells me that I still care about him.Now,I feel like I’m done with love and no other guy would ever care about me.I can’t feel happy anymore after what happened.I strongly have this urge to either strangle myself or stab myself in the heart.I just want this pain to be over.Please,help me.