I haven’t posted anything in a while, while I have been reading others posts and commenting I really have nothing to say as far as myself. I posted that I was entering a manic state, but now I’m not so sure. I have bipolar 2 so I don’t experience intense mania. I have sperts on and off of whats called hypomania. Less intense but still manic and comes with a harsh crash back to reality soon after. So for the last 6 days or so I have been calm, cool, and collected.
I woke up and realized I was completely over my ex and my depression completely ceased for the moment.
I’m not sure what is the cause of my newly found “okayness” Its like a mixture of feeling okay, calm, and numb.
So my question is what is the cause of this miraculous turn around? Is it the zoloft, limictal, and trazadone, I have been on for about 3-3.5 weeks? Is it God finally getting around to answering my prayers and reliving me of my inner demons? (wouldn’t that be fabulous! 😀 ), unlikely though. Or is it just good old fashioned hypomania without the usual symptoms?
I really have no clue! Only time will tell and even if this does continue I wont know if its the meds or the prayer or both. Guess if it kept up it wouldn’t really matter.
I’m really not trying to get my hopes up because I know that I may wake up tomorrow and crash and burn.
I think its probably a fantasy to even consider it being anything other than mania, but I don’t feel manic!
Eh I just don’t know, any thoughts/advice would be appreciated!
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When things were going well in life, you probably just expected things to continue that way….so why not just expect things to continue in a copacetic way, just like they are now. I gave up figuring things a long time ago and I flow with things as best I can. Cheers.
Maybe it’s just you, changing. 🙂 Hope you feel good in the following days as well. 🙂