things are so messed up.. when you post something to try and help people and only get negative comments and then you just want to take it down.. so you do..
things are so messed up.. when you meet someone and they lead you on and they flirt and they say they only want to be with you.. then they tell you they have a girlfriend and wont talk to you again..
things are so messed up.. when your only way of coping is through cutting and pain.
i fake a smile every single day, and the moment where it slips, and  im questioned, i panic and say something stupid like im tired or that i was just thinking..
i wish there was someone who would love me for me. i dont have a rockin figure and i probably should be skinnier. i wish someone was there to support me and not make me feel like shit every time i look in the mirror.
i dont have a bad life… i mean some seriously bad shit happened but its not a bad life in the moment.. but i still cant find myself but being anything but depressed.
i just wish i had someone.. i wish i could find someone who loved me.. im tired of being the odd one out.. the single one. the one people always pitty.
i love poetry.. anybody want a poem written?
im willing to talk also, if anybody needs to rant.. or just wants a friend
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I’m sorry i was in a bad mood im so stupid 🙁 i wont crutisize nymore
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Picture i bet your beautiful.
its ok, everyone has their days, and no you are not stupid, just be careful what you tell people, because you never know how they are going to take it or what they do to handle things.. and no, im not beautiful, i might be slightly pretty, but not beautiful..
How do you take down posts? Mine are stupid and filled with anger. I feel better now though.
Yeah and same here i cant remember half my teenage life though and I’m only 17 and I dont have an especially bad life either but i have wanted and may have succeeded in having a messed up head. I’m sorry i angered you. The pain in my mouth affected me negatively, havent been getting good sleep. Bad nutrition and everything im stupid and smart at the same time.
you go to the menu where you post them and edit them and you put it in the trash folder
and have you tried anbesol? it numbs your mouth.. and just give it time they will heal and you will be ok.. and if you need to talk ill listen..
Haha everyones eyes are different. There are different cariations to our stories you say you arent i say you are :P. Also I’m not stupid i just purposely make stupid mistakes. I succumbed to my anger and pissed you off. How old are you though? (completely irrevelant)
im 16, and yeah everyone sees a different picture, and thank you.. and have you tried sucking on ice? no numb ur gums?
I’m allergic to painkillers. It bloats my face up. 🙁
Dont you hate nightmares about voices? I freak out i can hear then at midnight when im awake. Sometimes
And my teeth are um well sensitive to the cold and stuff so thats a no go too….
yeah i hate nightmares, but i have them quite often.. the worst part is they are my reality.. they are things happening in reality and or things i dont want to relive but am forced to through them.
you will become more used to them (the braces) and it wont be bad, dont worry. and the anbesol might help you, its liquid, you dont digest it
Possibly can help. But i get through my days by saying no pain no gain. As in i never feel its working when i dont feel the pain. Also ive been having nightmares about voices since i was young and i still cry afterwards uncontrollably for some reason. Makes me afraid. Recently they have appeared at random times, sometimes accompanied by suddenly getting anxiety in my dads living room watching tv (divorced parents). Its weird. I at one point thought i had schizo but it doesnt talk to me and i cant understand what it says. The tone of voice is angry or disappointed and stuff.
Yeah i wish my dad would listen wen i said i need a psycholOgist. He thinks this site improved me yet actually its my laziness and tendeny to give up easy that kept me from suicide. (i love that word,freaks people out)
Are you in the US? If so would you like to text me? If not would.you like to email me?
That way we can talk?
Yes text im in cali your in oregon? (805) 861-5295
Sorry it was getting late and i have summer school.
Ok, i just sent you a text