story of my life

So many times i’ve felt like giving up on life, im only 14 and already i guess i’ve been through alot more then any other 14 year old.I was a victim of severe bullying and having that happen straight after i was cheated on was to much for me.  Its the fact that anything sharp was the first thing i’d turn to scares me, i’ve atempted suicide twice now but everytime i try i just stop, i can’t do it knowing now that i actually have friends that care about me also my parents. What would they think? I have scars all up my arm and some real bad on my chest. I need help from someone who’s going through/been through the same thing as i am/have. comments please?