Ties

I hate the fact that I have things that hold me back from committing suicide. It’s just like the guilt and the people I meet and know and the future I might have that holds me back from doing it. I hate how I have these good times where everything goes smoothly and it seems like it’s going to be okay and then it turns to shit. I just hate it. I hate how one bad thing affects my whole day. How one person can call me an asshole and not to have an attitude when I react to somebody snapping at me and then turn around and have the same reaction I have blows my mind. I know people can be hypocrites but I don’t understand how people can be so hypocritical. It just blows my mind how people can be so unaware. I just wish it was easy to die. Just to sleep and never wake up. Or just skip the bad parts about life…