My name is Josh, I am a 20y/o guy who lives with his parents. I’ve tried to live with some friends, in the past, it never worked (I could never find a job in my area). I recently had an opportunity to move to a better location, and maybe find a job. Someone (I know this person) screwed me over, I felt shot down, and I didn’t know what to do, so I moved in with my parents again. Its been about a month since that happened, and now I am slowly turning into a sociopath. I couldn’t care less about the people around me. After my mom realized I was being serious, she is kicking me out.  I have now family that I can turn to, I have no job (lost my last one in a shutdown about 6 months ago), thus no cash. Idk what I am supposed to do… I can’t turn to friends, because I have very few and they live a couple hundred miles away now. I really don’t know what I am supposed to do, I’ve really never contemplated suicide, until now. And I’m really not seeing a down side. Its either that or be homeless… or maybe jail. please help me figure something out…
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Hi Big, My best advise is to take it one day at a time. You are young, you still have a whole life ahead of you. I know it’s not easy, trust me i’ve been around a long time. I’ve lived rich, i’ve lived poor and i like the poor part way more. I’ve made it when i’ve been poor having nothing, i believe you can aswell. Think positive even tho it can be hard, Hold your head high and be strong. Message me on FB if you care to chat or just want to vent. same name as in here. Take care
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Hey! Just like you I struggled when I was trying to become independent mostly because I had not been trained to do that. I was raised without any thinking about the day I would leave and be on my own. Thus I took no care of my credit and wanted to move out and away by leaving with other people. It was comfortable, easier etc. Soon I learned that sometimes family is not so helpful and that NO ONE gives anything, specially shelter, for free. So, my lesson learned is that I need to take responsibility and plan things for the future. Get any job! Even Mcdonalds! and start saving. The road is not easy but it is doable. You can have an amazing life, travel places, meet new people, if you just break out of the shell and try! I also believe in astrology and seek guidance every way I can. I learned not to depend on anyone! To look for affirmation within myself and be self confident. Can you talk to your mom and ask her for sometime to gather some $? It is doable! Give yourself a time frame. You are young! You can do it!
Well, this probably sounds like a bad option to you right now but it’s better than jail, suicide, or homelessness: find a shelter. I’m sure there is a homeless shelter nearby you that could take you in. Also, try to call one of your friends that is hundreds of miles away. Perhaps they can fly you over to where they are and you can find a way to pay them back when you get a job. Meanwhile, check out craigslist.org and try to find a job using that. Just like Luckybombabcan says, you can chat with me on fb as well under the name Jezebel Sparrow. It’s an alias profile with my real pic but still…I will gladly listen.
My problem with the idea of a shelter is, I’ve live in a rural area, the closest metropolitan are is more than 20 miles away. I used to go to church, and now I’ve lost all faith, I honestly believe that if there was a “God” that my life wouldn’t be in shambles, or at least not this bad… In a literal sense I can’t think of a shelter anywhere around me… and that’s what scares me… I’ve been trying to get a job for a while now, but like I said I live in a very small town, and jobs are hard to come by when you have no car… I’m really lost right now, I honestly feel like my mind is slowly just leaving.
Dude guess what? My names Josh and im the same fuckin situation lol! Cept everyone I know lives with their parents, I can relate to the sociopath shit, mine only gets triggered when I ‘m either extremely bored or in that mood. I believe my parents are kicking me out for the same reasons too, lmfao they told me I need to go see a priest, a doctor, and I need to be taking medication.