behind the mask is the worst part

Once when I was little I was happy and carefree I used to run around laughing
Until it was time for tea I used to play games And smile all the time I used to feel on top of the world I used to feel fine It’s amazing how things change When people let you down And how that once happy face Turns into a solemn frown
You search and search For someone who cares Anyone who understands Anyone who dares Loneliness, it hurts It kills you deep inside It makes you feel empty It stops you in your stride You cry yourself to sleep Hugging your pillow tight Wishing for someone To hold you through the night Once when I was little I was happy and carefree Now my life’s full of sadness, Pain and misery Once when I was little I was never on my own But now I pray at night
”I wish I wasn’t alone”.I’m the girl, who hides behind a smile everyday.
I’m the girl, who has a tough exterior. But that’s not who I really am.
I’m the girl, who has a lot of problems, But doesn’t share one thing. I’m the girl, who keeps everything bottled up. Sometimes I just need someone to talk to. Someone to care about me. Someone to listen to my problems. Someone to hold me when I cry. Someone to love me. Nobody knows the real me. Nobody knows what I go through everyday. Nobody knows what I have to do just to make it through the day. Nobody knows that I’m the girl who isn’t who I say I am. im afraid that if i tell anyone what i think they will just judge me. all i want to do is die and when i do i want to kill myself bc i think that all the pain i went through so far i well give my soul to death in stead of in taking me. i cut myself of 2 years now and i’ve become addicted to it. i cant tell my family anything and my mom is always depressed and a alcoholic and my dad passed away when i was to years old. i just wish i was happy. the worst part is im only 12 years old.