A week or two ago I posted here as I was slowly getting overwhelmed with depression. I was ready 2 days ago with a solid plan, rope in my backpack and everything thought through, except for the poor tree that has to be stuck with my lifeless body swaying in the cold wind. But that was easy task to accomplish as there was many trees on my journey. Quite beautiful ones. It would have been a shameful sight for the tree if I would have went through with it.
My problem, which said before, was many and one big on that kept hitting my mind repeatedly was my dream that I have being chasing and obsessed was going to end. Took me 3 days of painful, no sleep, chilly nights, horrific imaginations, physical painÂ and aimless traveling for hundreds of miles with no destination to finally accept where I am, what is going on as all the problems before was an illusion that I wanted to just sway away with my hand but couldn’t and that made it so frustrating and unbearable. Found it hard to accept my rock bottom situation but I see a dim light at end of the tunnel now. Time to climb out of this well of depression. It’s just not worth it.
Wish you all a happy life,
PS! I might stick around for posting and hoping to help someone in need . I am finding writing my problems out here, even though no one cares nor it has much of a point kinda , relieving or as if cleansing my soul.