I want to die. I realize that this is a problem. But I dont know how to deal with it. I have cut myself in the past, along with starving myself. I dont know how to go on. I really dont. I do know that I cant give up just yet.
My life really to the average eye, isnt at all bad. But if someone would look deeper, they would realize that I live with a severely depressed mother, and an uptight dad that expects me to make miracles all the time. My mom, is always coming to me for said “help”. And its to much. The amount of times she has come to me saying “I want to die” are countless. I can’t handle her anymore.
I am in the I.B. at central high school. Which explains why my dad pushes me so hard. I have a horrible self image. I try to hide that though, and pretend nothing is wrong. My boyfriend knows to some degree that I am not all okay and happy all the time.
With both depression running in the family, and my dad always pushing me till I am in tears, saying that I am going to fail in life if i get just one bad grade, Â I am now a complete mess.
I need help. I need someone to help me. Because I really just don’t know what to do with my life anymore.