I can’t believe I keep letting this happen.
I have this boy I love having sexual intercourse with, he’s absolutely amazing, everything is nice and perfect size.
Anyway, he’s always treated me pretty bad, like there’s no relationship here just casual sex but still, respect is needed and this thing works two ways, okay so he was all like keen and now he’s only allowed to ask me when he’s keen I’m not allowed like seriously.
Oh and now he’s bringing more people into it. I don’t know how to say no so I go along with it. And tonight it’s just gotten out of control. He’s so rude and speaks to me like shit. I do not want him in my life anymore big he’s so good at the sex part I also don’t know how to actually do relationships anymore either 🙁
This is so messed up I can’t be bothered and I would like to just vanish forever.
I know I’m doing it to myself but I can’t stop I need attention, I enjoy negative the the most… At least I know people are giving a fuck.