Well I’ve become friends again with a girl i went to high school with, not sure if I’ve mentioned it before… But anyway every weekend for the past 2 months we go out clubbing and everything but she doesn’t invite me out on Wednesdays or Thursdays which are the most social days of the week here… I don’t want to ask to go because like that’s just asking to be around people who don’t or might not want you around you know?
Uhhh I don’t know what to do at all, I over think things to much and create problems that don’t need to be here.
My mum and sister have finally noticed im depressed but I don’t want to go to the doctors I don’t enjoy talking about emotions at all.
Oh hm and some of the boys in this group are all affectionate and like hugs and stuff and I can’t bring myself to do it I’m not an affectionate person I even struggle with people I date. I’ve finally think its because I’m just such a fuck and leave type of person.. Seeing how it’s all anyone ever wants and I’ve ended up only wanting that to.
I got my license, I’m glad that’s over and done with, I did apply for tafe and it’s only $500 because the place I’m studying it ha what a joke.
Oh my work is shit, I’ve been looking for another job but no one wants an uneducated kid that’s 20.
How am I supposed to live on $150 a week, honestly I hope this shit government gives me money for being a student in this shit state.
Everyone here has become sooooo much worse than what they were two weeks ago. I just want to leave and never come back… Only 1 and a half years to go.
That’s if I survive it.