I don’t know how to begin this post so I will just start somewhere. I am a hated human being by everyone. Including my family who always talk about me behind my back saying how horrible of a person I am. I’ve heard them. Â I have social issues because I am homeschooled and when I took a class at a local school people thought I was too weird and never talked to me because I never talked and I didn’t like the things they liked. I couldn’t wait to get out of there. And of course they talked about how weird I was when I wasn’t around. Even if they did get to know me they would hate me anyways because I’m such a rotten person with anger issues. Â So I just sit in my room playing my computer and drawing all day listen to the only comfort I got which is music. Music for me fills up the place in my heart where human beings are supposed to be. That is just the way it is. I have been suicidal in the past, But things got a little better. Then they get bad again. This pattern has been going on for the past few years. I wouldn’t say I am suicidal at the moment but may be getting there. The worst thing is I have nobody to tell this to as everybody hates me. I do not want pity though I want actual help. And when I try to get that from my family they will save what I said and use it against me in the future. So I stopped asking for help. Â So just move along, There’s nothing left to see. Just a body. Nothing left to see.