One of the  big reasons people don’t kill themselves is that they don’t want to hurt their friends & family. But when I think of them it just makes me want to pull the trigger even harder. All those two-faced liars and hypocrites need to see me dead with my brain in a million pieces; they need to wake up and see the real world… a place where cruelty has consequences, where lies can kill, and where some of us should be taken seriously when we say we need help. To all my friends and family who failed me, I do this for you.
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ouchers…..
umm let me try this….
So, basically you HATE your family and friends. A hatred so deep that you want to hurt them by making them SEE you dead and then feel bad for how they treated you.
But, if they are so mean and so cruel. Do you think they WILL feel bad? And YOU will not know if they feel bad or not – cuz you will be dead.
Doesnt seem like your plan “works” very well. I hope you find a BETTER way.
Now dont get me wrong. I am SURE you have pain. And may have good reason for being pissed at them. I just think you MAY have a better way of dealing with it.
Hope you rethink it.
by killing yourself to make them hurt it can come across as they are important, people who are 2 faced and living in their own stupid world where its just them will wake up and it will hurt them even more because therll think what is the real reason for their waking, they wont be able t find something tangible in theior mind and that is worse for most than being able to say “i realise what i did was wrong or i am feeling this way because….insert reason here”
most of all though i just dont want you to die.
your post title made me laugh out loud; that’s what I always think when I here that dated and debunked reason against suicide.
btw, you won’t be able to enjoy their misery if you’re dead. best thing to do is pull a huck finn, fake your death, then attend your funeral by hiding in the church attic. I think that a lot of people here would benefit from staring into the ‘what if’ machine and seeing what their funeral would be like, without the mess of death. I don’t hate my friends and family, mostly just resent them; I’d still get a kick out of seeing their tears and grief, looking at the faces of stunned disbelief at my untimely end. “he was so young and promising” they’d say. hahahaha i wanna make this happen more than ever
But would you want your last act be letting them control you? I am no tjudging you at all, I want to die too but is your reasons just because of other people? If so PLEASE don’t…. don’t let the horrible people in this world make you end your life. They don’t deserve that type of control!
The… feeling(?) wears off after a while. If you open your mind more and think about it, there is not a whole lot they can do to help. I’m sorry if they didn’t do the least bit to help and acted out in ways that hurt you.
Why am I guessing? That always happens. That’s what it’s like when someone you love threatens suicide; you act out in irrational ways. Even if they make you feel guilty or act as if they don’t care, they genuinely do care and just want you to be healthy. I promise it’s just a series of complications, with nothing to blame except their own shortcomings.
Forgiveness and understanding are essential to a healthy life. I understand that you feel like giving up on life, and might not be mentally stable, but please do us a favor and don’t quit on yourself.
I am sticking around for my family and the few friends I have left. Of course, by “family,” I mean my husband and kids. The rest of the people on this Earth I share a few genes with can go fuck themselves. Hard, with no lube and a splintered dildo.
Wooden dido? Kinky.
Thanks for all the replies everyone. On the whole I agree with what you’ve said… I’ll be dead & unable to enjoy my revenge …I shouldn’t let them control/affect my life (or death as the case may be)…
But I keep thinking it will be so satisfying in the minutes before my death to know that I’m blowing their world apart. And if nothing else, they may learn to take others seriously. More than anything else, I just want to be out of this world because the people in my life are making it unbearable and there’s no other way to leave them behind.
@tphg HAHAHAHA that gave me a good laugh. Huck Finn rocks. I would love to fake my own death and I’ve actually tried. About 10 years ago I cooked up a story that I had a brain tumor (some idiot doctor’s mis-diagnosis helped) and then I completely disappeared.
This’ll show you how screwed-up humans are… the rumors eventually changed to “he skipped town because he couldn’t pay his bills” WTF?????! That was so annoying. People will invent anything to tear you down :/
Anyway yeah, they’ll probably invent nasty things about me after I’m dead too. Whatever, I just want to be done with it all.
@GhostlyNinetyFive Wise words… It might wear off, but I’m sure it’ll take years. I have the misfortune of being one of those obsessive types who can’t let go of a thought/feeling for years. I’m still pissed at my 4th grade gym teacher for yelling at me 20 years ago. “Forgiveness & understanding are essential to a healthy life” agreed… maybe that’s why my life is such a goddam disaster. But barring a lobotomy I can’t change. I get too much satisfaction in hating the people who have hurt me
@thefailure
“The rest of the people on this Earth I share a few genes with can go fuck themselves. Hard, with no lube and a splintered dildo.”
Hahaha THAT’S what I want on my tombstone
Have you ever thought that the people have no idea how they hurt you or how they make you feel. My mother committed suicide last year and no one knew that she felt so horrible about, life she was always helping others. Unfortunatley she did leave us kids behind. Her death has taken a horrible toll on each on of us. One being my high school sister. She now is cutting to make her feel and deals with incredible depression, wanting to end her life. A part of me wonderers if my mom thought about her growing up without a mother in this crazy world? and if she did would it of made a diffrence. But as for my sister, councelors are now involved and they tell me things that my sister thinks and feels. Most of her thoughts are about how my family and others hate her. I can say that these thought and feelings are all new to me and I even had time in my life when I wanted to die and felt alone, but had no idea that even my jokes or giving her (what I thought was helpful) advise was really doing the oposite and making her hate me and herself. I am working on better ways of communication with her so we can talk positivly to eachother. It may be difficult, very difficult but please try to let people know before acting on their hate. It is worth a chance.