i know its time to check out of the world, but i found out whats holding me back. people, actual people who i know truly care, i dont want to let them go i wanna hold onto them neverlet them go cuz for me its rare to find someone who loves me for me and befriends me to have fun in each others company not to trick me into hurting me along the road. i never wanna see these friends to leave me and i dont leave them. i know this is when im supposed to die. i just took half a bottle of nyquil, heavy duty pain killers (forgot the name at the moment, but took 4 of those, and 6 tablespoons of liquid tylenol) im positive that wont take me ive done it before but i feel somewhat calmer once i i
finished my OD frenzy, who knows what will happen to me later in life i just want this hell to end
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Hey… I’ve been down that road before. 6 hospital rushes. It’s not worth it. I have permanent liver damage now because of it.
Look, you have a lot to live for. Everyone does. Hell ends the moment you start to take hold of your life.
What are you going to tell your friend in cali? You can stop this now. Its not too late. you can go to the hospital and they can help you. You can always result back to suicide, but you can never result black to lif
to living. (Ignore the top line phones being stupid). Please hanna don’t give in to it. You’re strong. You’re my best friend.. you can’t go!
yeah im just playing the odds now seeing what happens a second time, and my life and my hand to take hold seem to be miles out of reach of each other:/
i cant tell my friend in cali i just cant my mom will see it and if i were to erease the text his mom is my moms best friend i cant hurt them that way cant go to the hospital babysitting sister while dad does nothing and moms at a concert. i already swallowed everything, i gave in.
Your bust. Likie it or not. Stay time will get you.
i am going to be the fatest old guy out there. And i’m going to *****. Too.
i know how you feel man. that the only thing keeping you alive is those who actually care about you because you don’t want to hurt them. I know man and keep those people in your mind and in your heart because in these tough times they will keep you going. go get help, if not for yourself than for your friends and those in your life that will be heartbroken. you can do it man, you are strong enough to hold on. dont give into the temptations, it may seem worth it in this period of time but in the after math its not going to seem so great. stay strong man!
DAMN you Hannah. DAMN you!
Why the fuck arent you talking to me?? WHY would you do that. You have EVERYHING to live for. How the fuck are the rest of us supposed to carry on if the only good person here quits.
damn u
SHES OK
lifeblows: still here, last night failed.
you *****. why the fuck would you do that. god damn it. you didnt even TRY to talk to me first??
wtf i though u were my friend.
i guess i know exactly where i rate. fucking alone no matter what. fuck it. fuck it all
lifeblows: i am ur friend, im still here, and idk didnt think of it, ur not fucking alone
Your only 15! You don’t have any obligations to anyone except yourself. Understand.
i actually feel obligated to make EVERYONE in this world happy. i come last. EVERYONE comes before me
if everyone comes before you. then how did you forget your FRIENDS before you would do that?
The people that need you most.?.?.?.?. Remember?
Really, you shouldn’t be so emotionally attached. I don’t care about myself much either but that doesn’t mean I care about what happens to everyone. It’s not selfish to look after yourself because few people will. Anyone at that age doesn’t need the added pressure. We all have our problems.
Amakua was right in many ways. Not about me but about this site. Recently I’ve been reading some posts which make me wonder. This site isn’t the same or maybe I was naive.
@lifeblows:i thought bout that for HOURS but idk somehow my mind took control and i swallowed whatever i can get my hands on
@admiral of the fleet: true true.
@Admiral – this IS the same site … and you aren’t naive … you just didn’t “see” from the point of view as Amakua did … her life experiences made her very suspicious of everyone while people like you and i have never had to even consider ‘that” … so even the most innocent interaction could be seen through suspicious eyes as something totally different than its intent
this is why even though we are honorable – we must still be mindful of how our actions might be rightly or wrongly perceived. she was just trying to look out for those that were unknowingly vulnerable
guard dawg
FYI @Admiral – I’m glad “you” are back 🙂
Chancellor Dawg
I know. I like her. I guess I was having a bad day.
Is everyone ok?
….. Stupid question huh
I left my umbrella behind at the office. Now some of you might think what an unfortunate thing to do. But if you look on the bright side I just stopped at a bar waiting for the rain to stop. The longer it rains the more I drink. Either way the result is advantageous.
i think everyone is “fine” … we’re all adults here (in context of “that”) so I’m sure everyone said what they felt necessary and moved on.
as for ‘stupid” questions … there’s an old geezer saying … “The only stupid question is the question that is not asked” ~ someone smarter than me said that 😉
nothing wrong with enjoying a little “rain” 😉
hops dawg
That’s not true. The only stupid question is the one you don’t already know the answer. I’m a lawyer… remember.
In trial context that may be true – but in broader context (as in every other aspect of society outside the courtroom) your theory would be very detrimental to advancement of learning and understanding
… and yes … I “remember” … you even won one 😉
answer dawg
I’m about to win my second and third easily.
If the truth is inconsequential and the answer is likely to leave you in a predicament, can it still be said that asking the question is worthwhile. Assuming that for the answer to leave you in a compromising situation does not relate to it’s significance. As they say, ignorance is bliss; or is that the state of being inebriated. I can never tell.
One for the road
Dawg r u still there?
just getting ready to step out – what’s up?
Nothing. If you were here I would buy you a beer.
I’d like nothing more than to drink it … but alas … gotta earn $$s to feed the mutts
chow dawg
Catch you later. Keep up the good work. Dogs internationally respect and understand your plight. I was talking to one the other day. He said ‘Dawg is a cool dude’ and I replied ‘what the rapper’. No he said. The guy that frequents suicide forums.
As for $$’s when the Duke is in town you don’t have to worry.
Thanks – talk to ya soon … but probably on a different thread – SP has GOT to get this paging thing fixed or turned off … or I SWEAR I’ll JUMP!
flight dawg