I’m 36 years old, a bad mother, a worse wife. no job, no life, I finally got the storybook family and life I always wanted, but now I have to sit by the sidelines and watch it go by. I’ve tried a total of four or five times now to get rid of myself over my lifetime, and I can’t even get that right. I am a useless, burden to my family. They would be better off without me and won’t even know I’m gone. I use to believe that I was here for a reason and that everything that I have gone through would mean something oneday. But it doesn’t I am a waste of oxygen. I wish this world would please let me go.
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Deanne,
Sorry to hear of your pain.
Do you know WHY you feel so empty??? Any idea?
If you wanna talk – i will listen
James,
GBGUY1970@yahoo.com
You are not a waste of oxygen, that title is reserved for the scum of society, not you. You have a family and a life, it’s worth living, you are a mother. You are only a burden and useless if you believe you are, you need to get out of the mind set, and live life with your family. Someone people aren’t even able to have a family, and would love to be you and have a family. You are in a wonderful place, believe it or not. Enjoy this. Go on a trip with your family, take a walk, get out and enjoy life. It’s beautiful.
That’s scary. You sound like me, only the female equivalent: I’m 36 years old, a bad husband, an unenthusiastic father, and a failure as a provider. I don’t know what to say to make you feel better. I could suggest you talk to your husband, who no doubt still loves you and thinks you are great … but that would be hypocritical. I’ve not spoken to my wife about the way I feel as I don’t know where to begin, and I feel as though I’ve lost her. All I can do is to wish you all the very best, and suggest you take some deep breaths: right now, you need oxygen more than almost anyone.