I swear to god, there is something very unnatural about capitalism; it is dehumanizing. I know I was not put on this earth to be a pawn in the system, and neither were you. I think that the industrialization of society was more of a curse than a blessingâ€“sure, things are moreÂ convenientÂ than they were 200 years ago, we live longer, have antibiotics, (is that really a good thing?….) but I would trade every convenience of modern societyÂ to be free from this system.
I am currently unemployed. Again. Do I want to go out and sell myself into wage slavery, again? NO. That’s right, NO. For some reason, I cannot handle the life that other people willingly lead, without question, until their deaths. I say all this, but I have yet to find a way out, an alternative way that doesn’t involve selling one’s identity and soul for some godforsaken pieces of green paper. I know there are people who live fulfilling livesâ€“we all know there are people who are truly happy out there. What have they done differently? Are they just lucky? Why can’t I find the path that they took and walk it also? Why does it seem that the only path open to me is the one that leads to a life not here on this earth? Perhaps my own life, my real life, will not begin until I take that step into the great beyond…..