MY LIFE IS WICKED ALL MY LIFE I’VE NEVER HAD NOBODY TO TALK TO I ALWAYS KEEPED MY STUFF TO ME. ”I ALWAYS SAID ME MY SELFÂ AND I” SO SOMETIMES I THINK ABOUT KILLING MY SELF WHY? BECAUSE AM SELFCONSIOUS AM ALWAYS THINKING AM UGLY I HATE MY BODY AM 21 YEARS OLD AM 5’FEET I WEIGHÂ 85 POUNDS I CANT GET OVER THE IDEA I WEIGH THE MUCH THE FACT THAT I C GIRLS MY AGE AND THEY LOOK LIKE WOMAN I LOOK LIKE A DAMMN 14 YEAR LD GIRL PPL DONT TAKE ME SERIOUS. I MEAN COME ON SOMETIMES THEY SAY TOÂ MEÂ ‘HONEY IS YOUR MOM HOME”? REALLY? BUT I ALWAYS TRY TO TALK TO MY SELF AND I LOOK IN THE MIRRIOR AND SAY FLAKA YOUR BEAUTIFULL FROM INSIDE YOUR A GREAT PERSON YOU ALWAYS HELPING PEOPLE. AM ALWAYS THERE FOR MY HOMIES. BUT THEN AGAIN WHO SEES DOES FEELINGS WHO SEES THE REAL ME? AM ALWAYS DOWN BUT I NEVER SHOW IT IF YOU ASK ME HOW YOU DOING I WILL SAY AM GOOD 🙂 WHO IT MY KIDDING. AM HEREÂ FOR MY BROTHER BECAUSE I ALWAYS WANTED A BABY IN THE HOUSE AND KNOW THAT I HAVE HIM AM HAPPY AND I NEED TO STOP THINKING ABOUT KILLING MY SELF AS MUCH PRESURE I HAVE. I HAVE NEVER CRIED OUT ALL MY FELLINGS THERE STILL SAVED UP BUT AM NEVER ALONE TO DO IT:( I TRIED SO HARD TO STAY POSITIVE IT WORKS SOMETIMES. WE GOTTA STAY POSITIVE AM GONNA GET CANCELLING AND YOUNG GIRLS OUT THERE SHOULD TOO. WE ONLY LIVE ONE TIME. I COULD GAVE YOU THE BEST ADVICE IN THE WORLD BUT NEVER TAKE MY OWN HOW DOES THAT WORK?
Hi Flaka, That last bit could apply to many of us here. We can do everything to try and bring someone else back from the brink, but we still want to ‘off’ ourselves…we’ll find umpteen reasons why others should continue to live, but it’s another thing when we ourselves are low.
One day you might find it very flattering to be told you look ten years younger than you are sweetheart!
You sound like a lovely young woman who would do anything for her ‘homies’. The body issues, those are just so common among young women these days, it’s probably a lot harder to find a young woman who DOESN’T have them. The pressure from media etc has got to be a lot worse than it was when I was growing up (I’m 50 now).
It’s great that you adore your baby brother. I hope you continue to find reasons to live Flaka. Zx
hello louise will thank you for your comment i appriciate it. and ur right alot of woman do payattention to stupid hings like that, i should just focus on other things huh.lol and ur at a great age i bet ur very active. and beautifull to take time to read my post. thank you.