Finally, i am not unpredictable. I am stable because of my meds. I take 15 mg or g of abilify for bipolar disorder( i dont remember what the dose is its either mg or g). I dont feel like i could explode at any moment in time. This is all kind of new to me.. being stable. I have for my whole life been used to being unstable and psychotic. I almost think that the meds are working almost too well because i dont really feel anything anymore. I dont feel happy or sad or anything. what do you guys think i should do.. enjoy it or tell m psychiatrist?
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I would stop it ASAP.
All psychiatric medications are actually poisons. They damage the living tissue in the brain’s frontal and temporal lobes.
In short, it will trash your ability to ‘feel’ anything. I know this because someone I know is on an antipsychotic and has been for a while (he has schiz) and he has no ability to ‘feel’ emotions or experience something intellectually… You can google about this, and you will find that it is true, as well as your psychiatrist is very well paid to do nothing more than explain to you what you told him in his own medical terms and push medications on you.
They will drug you to the point that you have no will, and then you will get stuck on the meds and be fckd up for the rest of your life.
BTW, the psych is in it only for the money, doesnt give a crap. He is just as brainwashed as society is into thinking that a ‘chemical labotomy’ (which is what these drugs are) is the best method to cure your problems. Hell, I bet if you got through the long list of poisons, and nothing worked, I guarantee you he would go to labotomy or electric shock therapy…
That’s not true. Well, it is in the case of antipsychotic meds, but that’s the point of them.
If you have ADHD and take meds for it, you can actually experience emotions and intellectual life as something more than a hazy shade of confusion. Anti-depressants stabilize your mood (some stabilize anxiety, as well), which is both a blessing and a curse. It makes living a bit easier for some people.
The fact some people make money off of it doesn’t mitigate the fact that they do help some of the people who take them.
Your brain is already producing very powerful chemicals.
That’s how our brains work.
Most psych drugs work by regulating your own brain chemistry.
If you have fears, talk to your doctor.
Good luck.
I agree with the Guardian Stacy anything you don’t feel quite right about you should tell your doctor, I don’t believe that the drugs are anywhere near as harmful as some here might lead you to believe though. oh and it would be mg’s you are taking not grams. I am glad you found something that is helping you and you feel better!
thank you all for your feedback. I think i will end up talking to m psychiatrist about maybe lessening the dose and then maybe adding another med for anxiety because besides the mood stabalizing (which was taken care of at 5 Miligrams) anxiety was the reason we were upping the ante with the meds so maybe we can take something different for the anxiety and down grade of the dose because i really almost feel nothing anymore and when i do feel something it doesnt last long. maybe half hour at the most.
well no wonder you were having issues, if 5mg was enough and then you tripled it to 15mg. You just have to really keep track of how these drugs make you feel and always tell your doctor as much as you can about how you think they are effecting you. All the doctor can do is take what you say and try to make the best guess as to what might work. So the more information you can give the better they can be at making their guesses. Don’t ever feel afraid to tell the doctor if something isn’t feeling right to you.
HI Stacey. I’m on Risperidone (anti psychotic) 2mg a day, Lamictal (mood stabiliser) 200mg a day and citalopram (antidepressant) 40mg a day. This is more drugs than I’ve been on for most of the 20 years I’ve been diagnosed with Bipolar 1 (including, like you, psychosis).
Does it stop me ‘feeling’ stuff? Well, yes, in some ways, no in others. It’s kind of a trade-off that I’m willing to make for the time being. I’m a very ‘feeling’ person, at times that’s a blessing but it can often be a curse too. Meds in some ways numb my feelings to make me a bit more like ‘normal’ people.
I have noticed that I’m unable to cry and have been for about two years, the same length of time I’ve been on Citalopram, the antidepressant. I DO miss being able to cry. It’s a useful outlet for grief. However sad I feel just, nothing. The other main side effect is an almost total loss of sex drive, which I also miss…sometimes!
Intellectually I’m still fairly compos mentis, tho’ when depressed my brain is sluggish (and yes, I still get depressed at times despite all the meds!)
The antipsychotic I’m on seems to have kept me stable and mania-free for well over a year, so I’m happy with that. Psychosis is something I want to avoid at all costs, since for me it is even more damaging than depression.
Regarding what kthx says, well I have been the ‘natural’ route, the ‘no meds’ route, have read Peter Breggin’s books such as Toxic Psychiatry. I still have a degree of sympathy for that point of view. But for me, I am desperate to stay well, and my illness is very real. I’m prepared to accept the help, and work with my psych toward the long term goal of stability.
I find I can still function fairly well on the meds, that’s the bottom line. Maybe I’m one of the ‘lucky’ ones.
Abilify is an anti-psychotic. I’m surprised you’re only on that? Most people with bipolar take a mood stabiliser (such as lithium, lamictal, valproate etc). Maybe your doc is using Abilify as a mood stabiliser here. Often we bipolars end up on two or three different drugs.
I would agree with one of your other commenters that it is best to communicate with your psych as much as you can. The more information he has, the more he’s got to work with. If he gets to know a bit more about you as a person there’s a better chance of forming a good relationship with him which helps in your care.
Hope this is of interest to you Stacey in making up your own mind about your meds.
Good luck! Zx