Elayna Isabel Carter “Layne” will be laid to rest today after 17 years of misery on this earth
Layne is remembered by those who knew her as a pathetic excuse for a human and a waste of oxygen. She was the unwanted youngest child of Phillip and Collete  and the stupid annoying kid sister of Matthew and Kristin.
Layne hung herself in her room leaving her family and so-called friends overjoyed that the emo psycho was finally dead and gone. You see Layne was a failure and a drain on society. She got knocked up at 14 and failed miserably at being a mother to her son Broox. He is better off without her. That beautiful little boy deserves better than her. Broox is perfect in every way! He is smart handsome loving and all together the greatest little boy on this planet. He didn’t choose to be born to a stupid worthless slut.
There will be no funeral because nobody will show up to celebrate the life of somebody who did nothing except fuck up until her last breathe.
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You have enough worth to have been born, you have enough worth to write, you have worth to breath, and live, and feel like everyone else, You most deffinetly have enough worth to give birth to a child that’s so kind. Noone will be overjoyed with your lost life. And the child you love with every fiber of your being will forever be confused and cry at the lose of the mother who cared so much for him.
‘Broox’… I really like that name. I too have been feeling very down lately Elayna, but we must fight on… Destroy our demons. You got it girl. 🙂
It’s my love for him that makes me think he’d be better off without me. He’s so young he would forget me quickly. I love him so much it hurts!!! He’s so funny and so smart!!! I remember what it’s like to grow up with a mom who couldn’t take care of you and wish somebody else could swoop in and save you. I want more for Broox than I had!! I want to give him the whole world and I can’t. I’m working 3 jobs right now and still my poor sweet baby boys clothes don’t fit right now because after rent, groceries, daycare, gas to get back and forth to work, and other bills I can’t afford to buy new clothes for him. If I’m gone he will go and live with my aunt who can provide so much better for him. I am determined to give Broox everything he deserves if that means me dying so he can live a good life I have to do it! I am failing him
I think you are looking at this all wrong Layne…. In my eyes Broox is lucky! He has a mom that would give her life for him who literally loves him more than life…..who works her ass off for him!! You talk about what he deserves.. he deserves his mommy with him! To hold him when he’s scared and wipe his tears when hes hurt! A mommy to be at his t-ball games cheering him on and a mommy to help him with his homework. He deserves you and you deserve the chance to watch him grow from a sweet funny little boy to a great man! You aren’t failing him sweetie you are doing the best you can!! Don’t cheat yourself out of being a part of his life! Please don’t give up
imagine growing up thinking your weren’t enough to keep your mother alive, imagine thinking you ruined your mothers life just by being born, in your mind it might seem like your doing the best for him, but he certainly isnt going to see it that way when his older.
You’d be surprised at what children remember even at a young age. He will always know your face, and remember the voice that held so much love and care in it. Your giving him the most important thing and that is the love and care you have for him. How you want the best for him, how you would do anything for him. He’ll always know that, and that is what’s important.
You should try to work with your aunt right now to see if she can help provide anything. I also have another suggestion that might sound extreme, but I’ve seen it work first hand…
My best friend’s sister had a baby very young as well, and couldn’t handle it. Like you she wanted the best life for her child, so… She gave him up for adoption. Luckily it was her aunt that literally adopted her child, and since then, I’ve seen his overall health and well-being improve… Hers as well.
Just a thought…
You should try to work with your aunt right now to see if she can help provide anything. I also have another suggestion that might sound extreme, but I’ve seen it work first hand…
My best friend’s sister had a baby very young as well, and couldn’t handle it. Like you she wanted the best life for her child, so… She gave him up for adoption. Luckily it was her aunt that literally adopted her child, and since then, I’ve seen his overall health and well-being improve… Hers as well.
Just a thought…
I never thought about him thinking he wasn’t enough to keep me alive or thinking he ruined my life. Oh God I ever want him to think that. He’s the only good thing I’ve done with my life! He’s perfect
To Johnny I have thought about that. I just don’t want him to think I don’t want him
I think what you just said – “I just don’t want him to think I don’t want him” – is the only motivation you need to keep on keeping on.
I think you should sit down with your aunt and talk about some of the issues you’re having. It seems like she is a very loving, caring, understanding person if she’s the one you trust… Go to her.
bleedtokwuralive, You are a mom, your son needs you. think how bad and hard life has been for you, you don’t want your lil boy to suffer in the same way you did. he needs your love and protection, hope you will get some help, stay here not for you, for your kid, no one will love him like you do, and if you die he will be alone forever.
i too hope you hang in there.
i can not speak for everyone, but even in my darkest moments – i still worried about others. will they be ok, will they be safe, will this hurt them too much… that kinda stuff.
I hope you use those instincts to stay here and raise your son the best that you can. kids understand our failures as long as you dont abandon them. that is simply too hard for kids to deal with.