I keep having mental and nervous breakdowns over the stupidest things. For one, when ever i think of my job (subway) i wanna break down crying because i hate it so much. Just having the dog pee on my bed will set me off into a huge crying and sobbing episode that will last for hours. I have panic attacks when that happens. I am seeing a psychiatrist and i dont know how to bring up the fact that i think i need xanax or ativan or something because when i have those episodes i become very suicidal. I have bipolar by the way so all of the emotions i feel are intensified greatly than what they really are which really really sucks! What do you guys think i should do? i feel like im just gunna crack any minute.
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Sorry to hear this Stacey. I’m bipolar too so I know what you’re up against. For a start I guess you could look for another job, or go back to school/college if you need more qualifications. When going to see your psychiatrist would it maybe help to get someone you trust to go with you, and write a list of questions you want to raise with the psych before you go in?
Whatever you decide to do, know that we’re here to listen when you need to vent…best wishes, Zx
thanks but i already have a psychiatrist and have been seeing her. I just dont know how to bring up randomly in convo that i want xanax without sounding like a druggie. (i used to be addicted to them but she doesnt kno that nor am i going to tell her.)
ANyone else have advice? i went to my therapist today and i brought it up but she thought that it was for attention. i guess that is but not most of it. I just want my mom to care about me.