So I’ve been suffering from depression for a little over 3 years now. My Girlfriend of two years broke up with me well over a year ago. Sob story blah blah. When that happened I threatened suicide, cops, recovery ward for a week. A couple months later, police again, suicide ward. That was over a year ago. Today, and I am not shitting you I decided my life was finally just about turned around. This of course was a slow moving process. Very… Slow. Guess what happens a few hours ago? She texts me! I’m finally about over this and she texts me! After a year of never speaking to her! WHAT THE FUCK? I think she’s dating someone IDK. AND BOOM it’s done, I have sunk a little lower, no where near as low as I was, but what the fuck is she doing texting me. Of course I still love her. Yeah yeah I’m 21 and young, but this girl changed my life for the better, then because of my depression she left me. So needless to say I instantly got wasted, completely and had an interesting walk to the gas station to buy some cigs. I don’t smoke. FUCK THIS. Now I have to hope she doesn’t text me again and start a few Steps back.
What should I do? Text her in a week or so and start to build our friendship?? Or should I back off and try continuing to live my life without her. Yes I was getting over everything, but I am still dreaming about her every other night.
I’ve always believed in God, but what kind of sick mind game is this? Unless she is single and we can get back together which is a one in a million chance. I can definitely move forward again. But I keep feeling like this is an opportunity to try and get her back! Thanks for reading if you got this far. I may get off here for awhile again so if anyone does comment I may not see it. But thanks for reading my post. If you so desire you can email me at onion4663@gmail.com. But I won’t be expecting any emails.
Have a Wonderful Night!!! and if you’re depressed it will get better I promise!!!! It takes forever and when it does get better you might have a curveball send you right back down again like me yay!! If you’re lucky you won’t. I’m not lucky! Recovery all over again yay!
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Ask her why she’s texting you, find out what’s going on. If it’s ‘just because’ then you might as well tell her to give you a more legitimate reason. If she still doesn’t get it, rant to her in a polite way. Tell her you still love her and you’re still recovering from the break up. Tell her you’ve been doing so well in recovering from depression. You need to tell her this; but don’t scream in her face, you may hurt each other’s feelings.