Today is the day.

Well today is the day, im finally leaving this horrible life of mine. I have discovered somethings recently that have become the straw that broke the camels back. So im taking care of the problem, and that problem is me. You can call me selfish, i dont care, i know i am. If its selfish to end my life to end the pain and lonliness i have been dealing with my whole life, then so be it. No one will miss me, because i dont give a shit about anyone anymore. People say that killing yourself is wasting god’s gift. Well i dont believe that god would care if one person that has done nothing wit his life, out the 6 billion people out in the world gets a visit from the grimm reaper a bit early. And if you dont like a gift a friend gives you, dont you return it?? Well im just returning this shit gift god gave me 20 years ago. I wrote a suicide note, the damn thing was 5 pages long. And im leaving the little money i have to my family. Nothing anyone really says will change my mind. The only real thing im upset about is that i wont see my neice grow up, but she is still young, so hopefully she wont remember me much growing up. And with that im gone. Im just going to say bye to my exe who i still love, and then tonight im going to have my last meal, and finish the job. I would tell you guys how, but i dont rlly need dumbasses judging me sayin this is stupid, and that its goin to be pain ful, because i dont give a shit about the pain im going to feel, its nothing compared to the pain i felt my whole life, if anything its a fitting end to my miserable life. The only real reason im posting here is that…..tbh idont even know why i am.