Where do i go from here?

I have visited this sight in the past and I am now back, not because I want to die. I have wanted to die and I have thought and tried but I will never succeed. Somewhere in my heart is the passion to go on I just dont know how to go on when I hurt so much. I could go on and on about my fucked up life and all the horrible things that have hurt me. But I have finally thought I found peace with myself and something that made me happy. Then it all crumbles down around me. I want love and happiness. Right now its hard to get through each day I hate work and I hate waking up. This sight helped me in the past and I hope it will again. Im too young to feel this horrible.