So in the last month I’ve tried to commit suicide three times and have been in the hospital twice. I admitted myself and was there for 72 hrs the first time which didn’t help at all.. the second time they really tried to help and it did for a day or so. They diagnoised me as being Borderline Personality Disorder and honestly I can really see that in myself but now that I’ve studied it and see what I really am it brings me down even more. And I’ve hid all these deep feelings even the thought of being suicidal for over 15 yrs but now everyone knows. And I have gained a support team. But you see the issue is now that everyone knows this… I’m embarressed and I’m scared people are thinking I want attention and am afraid of what people are saying about me. I just want everyone to go and never talk to me again. I’m sick of dealing with people already and I want them to leave me alone. I just wanna die, rot in hell because that is what I deserve. Am I wrong for the way I feel???