Although I’ve been feeling better lately (especially last week I was absolutely in a state of frenzy, I was elated to see my friends and everything was amazing for 1 or 2 days) I’ve discovered that my new found ‘betterness’ can be crushed with a few words of discouragement from someone.
A few days ago I stumbled upon a program at my university that offers free counseling if they discover that I suffer from depression.
The thing is that I might not be in a state of true depression right now but I had the symptoms before and felt really horrible. I’m kind of afraid, it took me a long time to even decide to take the opportunity and see if I can be helped. That’s so unusual from me because I tend to bottle it up and keep going without asking for help from anyone at all.
I’m kind of scared of the whole thing. I hope they’ll be nice and treat me right. I tend to lie to people and never tell exactly how bad I feel most of the time. Doing things that scare me today might keep me alive tomorrow so I hope for the best.
Oh and be aware that things are so bleak only in your mind and seek help, please seek help.
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Thats great, catharsis is the first step of unburdening yourself, it actually helps i have been in therapy myself,
Just as Tony Sopranoe said once to his therapist Dr. Jennifer Melfi
“y’ano sometimes coming here actually feels like taking a shit” 🙂
That’s really funny! I’ve seen a psychologist before so I know how great it feels after that.