I have breakdowns. Because I have mental health problems. And these breakdowns are quite possibly some of the scariest things I have to endure. I don’t get a choice, They can happen at random. And yeah, Sometimes I want support.. So I attention seek. But considering at all other times all I am trying to do is make others happy, I thought people would be able to let that go.. But no.
I’m fucking sick of this. The world is a cruel selfish *****, Just like me probably. I know most of you have thought that before.. I wanted to stick around for the good things in life, But now I can see that they are going to be over powered by the bad. So maybe I will stick around to hear my youngest nephew talk. Sit at his feet and listen intently as he struggles to let out the letters of my name. Of course, I will be proud. I’m proud to be their Aunty, But they really should have someone better.
I don’t have a date. I’m giving up on that. I just wanted things to get better… But girls like me, The broken toys.. They don’t get happy endings. I know that now.
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Hey Nat,
I don’t think we’ve met before. I’m Katey and i love to bake so how about some chocolate brownies and two cups of tea? Well for one you’re an amazing, brave person to put up with all the madness around you. I know how hard that is.
But whilst you’re sitting there with your young nephews i’m sure you can feel the hope that things can get better. As for whether or not your not a good Auntie- you’re one that knows real life, you don’t pretend like 90% of the ignorant people out there. They’ll grow to know the truth.
I’ll admit life doesn’t have fairy tale endings but you can have an aim in life and if you want it with all your heart, and you work for it you can get it. Sounds like a load of rubbish? Well why not do it and find out.
Stay strong
Katey
Hey thanks 🙂 would love tea and brownies 🙂 and i know.. Just my typical depressing rant i guess.
Eh…rants are good- helps you feel better. Being depressing can be a pretty boring way to spend your life. 🙂 So might as well have a bit of fun.
Agreed.
“The world is a cruel selfish *****”, is right. The most horrible truth, is that it’s that way by design. If you decide you’re gonna’ tough it out for a little longer, or that you have a “little fight left in you”, maybe you should consider making an attempt to change the cruel society we live in. I’m not talking some “start with the man in the mirror” b.s., I mean a REAL difference. If you decide to fight this oppressive culture we live in, you must realize that the odds are against us, but that doesn’t mean that there’s not a noble death waiting for those who wish to engage the enemy.http://suicideproject.org/2012/08/revelation-3/http://suicideproject.org/2012/09/by-clicking-on-this-entry-i-certify-that-i-am-18-years-of-age/
I’m schitzoprenic , and i know how you feel …. at night my visions get so scary i scream and scream until my throat is scratchy , and my eyes are so red from crying i look like a vampire… I know how you feel…
nice title. blink-182 🙂
*schizophrenic… Hmm…
I love Blink 182.
The un-suspectinq victim of ?????????I forqot the rest but I freakinq love that sonq!!!I like schrizophrenic to!
You like schizophrenics. :I