my mom and her boyfriend are arguing on the phone with each other in the other room. my mom is screaming and crying i am stuck in my room blocking it out like i always do… i had the worst day at school today there are rumors about me and my ex boyfriend is being a pain… i am trying too move on but it is a little hard when you see him every were at school and today he asks you if you and him can talk but you can’t because you are busy dealing with your Borderline Personality Disorder mom all the time…. my grades are slipping and i really do not care…. i was thinking about killing myself today but i am having a difficult time finding a method that will work.. if i cut a main blood vessel in my neck so i can bleed too death?Â mix my antidepressants with sleeping pills and advil? any ideas?