I want to die, but of course I can’t. First I’m scared of dying but I’m sick and tired of trying to live happy. My parents stalk the hell out of me whenever I try to talk to a boy and my dad and mom beat me. What am I supposed to do? My friends tell me I look weird when I don’t smile because I smile all the time. Why do I smile? Why am I completely at peace when I’m at school, but at home I dread it and want to die
I’m tired of living. I’m tired of crying. I’m tired of doing everything. I just can’t take this anymore. I pray to God everyday to kill me in anyway because that would be better than living, but nothing happens. Please help me. I’ve always wanted a guy that understood me you know? But I can’t find anyone. I want someone who understands me one who can take away this burden so I’ll actually love living again. But where is that person? Where is the person I can go to and cry and he’ll take care of me. Me being only 13 I can’t do anything. I cant run away. I need someone who’s going to help me. Please I need someone who can talk to me and understand me and just take me away from this life. I hate it. Â WHY! Does God hate me? I’ve done bad things in my life, but I’m a good person! I don’t kill people, I don’t hurt anyone, I’M the one thats hurting! I can’t do this anymore…I’m done…I just can’t… Please just please help me.
I always wondered what would happen if I died. Would anyone care? What would my family do? What would my friends do? Is there anyone going through the same pain as me. Of course. I just wish one of them can come to me and we can help each other out because I CAN’T do this alone. I can’t. Please God stop screwing up my life. Stop making me depressed and sad. Can’t I be happy like all the other people are? Some people have minor problems that they can deal with, why can’t I be the same as them?
I WANT TO DIE.
I read something a girl wrote on here who was 20. Will I be like that when I get older?
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I’m really sorry that you feel that way. Truth is, i feel exactly the same way. I ask God to kill me a lot but nothing happens. I can’t understand why God hates me so much. I’m a freak and a loser and im so stupid and lazy. God, i haven’t even brushed my teeth for weeks on end because my retarded brain is so screwed up. I don’t know what to do. But, honestly, you’re really young and it really kills me to hear the pain that you’ve had to put up with. Sometimes – well, a lot of the time – you can’t really control what life does to you but – if you somehow do decide to go on – it’s not your fault and “God wouldn’t blame you for what’s out of your control” (just a quote I heard somewhere). I’m sorry i couldn’t be much help. But i feel the same way about wanting to die so i don’t really know what to say. Im really sorry : (
You and other people have commented on my post, and I realize that both of us CAN get better. We may be depressed right now, but we can get better. If you need ANY help just email me. I also go to music for help, and I like the song Therapy by All Time Low. It has a deep meaning and I usually listen to bands like All Time Low and There for Tomorrow. I hope you learn like I am starting to, on how to heal ourselves with the help of others.
You are 13 and you still have a long life ahead of you. A life that could quite possibly be not as bad as the one you are living now, you shouldn’t have your mind set on dying just yet because you never know who you will meet in future years, I am also going through a lot of the same things as you are but my mind is not set on killing myself just yet. In the near future possibly because situations might get worse but not yet if you really need someone you can talk to you can talk to me if you have a cell phone or through email. I’m not much older than you are but I do know that there will be good things coming to you in the future.
You’re comment and others have helped me so much. I know I’ll look back on all these comments when I get depressed and I know they’ll help me again. Thank you! x)
“Where is the person I can go to and cry and he’ll take care of me.”
#1 thing….Forget the idea of crying to a guy and him taking care of you. The truth is, guys hate that kind of stuff. That’s not to say you could never take a problem to him, but they can only handle just so much. They’ll break up with you and then tell their friends “she was just such a bummer all the time.”
Cry to your girlfriends…THEY are the ones that will talk to you, girls usually love to talk about feelings.
As you grow up you are going to find it to be true, a man can almost never provide the full emotional support a woman needs. It’s not their fault, it’s the way they are built. No matter how fantastic a relationship you find in the future, never center your entire life on one guy. Always keep your girls there with you too.
#2 – you have so many great things coming up…..killing yourself will be totally unproductive. You are growing and will be getting a great sexy body (make sure to exercise!) that doesn’t last forever, honey, believe me. You’re going to be going on dates, breaking hearts, going to school dances, wearing bikinis at the beach, getting your license…the list keeps going. You don’t want to miss out on all that!
#3 – you need a hobby. Whether it’s a sport, art, music, reading, studying, growing strange plants (just kidding!)…just whatever!!! Do something! Enjoy it and learn to do it well. Guys like a girl that is interesting. Don’t make having a boyfriend your hobby.
So many good times coming are up….it just doesn’t happen fast enough when you are 13. It’s a really awkward age and it won’t last forever, I promise.
Thank you. Honestly, I think I come here to rant when my feelings get serious and really bad. I know, I have a whole life ahead of me and I’m glad that you and other people that commented made me snap out of it and realize that I still need to live on. Thank you so, so much for you’re great tips. They really helped a lot. x)