I use to cut myself to make the pain go away and it worked, but I had to stop because people found out. It use to make me feel so tired that nothing would bother me because I was as low as I could get. I want to go back to it because then nothing would bother me. I mean when I was that low I still acted normal and no one knew the difference. I was doing okay for awhile but all the stuff I learned isn’t working anymore. What do I do because I don’t know if I can go back without people thinking something is going on with me. I just don’t want to feel anymore.
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Took the words right out of my mouth.
I want to start cutting again but i don’t want to hurt the people around me. I don’t know what to do with this built up stress and emotion. I hate this.
I hope you get through this
I hope you do too
This is @kieylee and solace + anyone else who cuts. Nolentwohundred has been suggesting something that may be useful to you. squeezing ice cubes in the palm of your hand creates intense pain and would release the same endorphins as cutting. If you really want to vamp it up pour some salt on an area the area you want (thighs w.e) and then put the ice cube on top of it. careful though, i did this once and it froze my skin and left a scar on my stomach.
idk if that would help, because i think a part of cutting is seeing the blood and knowing that you’re destroying yourself, but its a thought i wanted to throw out there.
You can also try snapping rubber bands on your skin or tasting hot spice like wasabi or even exercise. Anything that helps release natural painkillers can help.
Ultimately though you may need help to find safer ways to cope with things in your life, there are therapists who specialize in this area.
Good luck