We’ve been arguing continuously,if it wasn’t you who started it first,then it would be me.You said that we could make it right together,I said we couldn’t .But you insisted,so I chose to believe you.But..do you see what is happening now? You should’ve believed me and let me leave,so that you won’t get hurt anymore.Do you regret it now?
You’ve saved me when I was depressed and ready to leave this world behind,just by saying those words of encouragement and giving me hugs which you hated but did it anyway.But,are you doing it now? You began to show your disgust when I tried to embrace you.I got hurt but tried to convince myself to understand you.I lived because of you.Now, I’m in doubt.
Once,we fought with each other,and you constantly told me that you love me and would do anything to make me happy.You waited for my text reply at night when I myself didn’t have an answer to reply to you.You even sang my favourite song for me.They were the little that touched my heart deeply.But,where are your promises now? Did you fulfill them? Am I happy with you not being beside me now? You promised to get me something for my birthday,I waited everyday expecting to see you bringing me a present in school and giving it to me.But instead,you asked other people what they want and got for them,when I was the first one you promised to.I became really disappointed,but still convinced myself to think that maybe you forgot,and that you will remember it one day.
You said that I’m the most special person in your life.What makes me special then? You said you don’t know.Everyday,I think about what makes me special to you,and tried to find the answer in every way possible,but failed tremendously.Yo started to hate me.I told you this,but you said that I was accusing,when the answer was obvious to my eyes.Now,I’m in constant despair.I’ve become an idiot,looking at your handwritten letters that you once wrote to me and blaming myself for what you’ve become.
Before I sleep and the first thing when I wake up,I’ll think of you.The question is..do you think that of me too?