My little sister is nine – and since im somewhat glad to say that tonight will be my last night – i wrote letters to all my family members , and friends – this is to my little sister when she gets older….The Following is a letter to sofia ( please give to Mom and Dad until sofia reaches 12 or until you feel that you need to give it to her)
Hey Lil’ sis ! Miss you – If your reading this – then you know that im dead , and i have been dead for a long time now… I would love to have watched you grow up , and become the beautiful young women i know you will be , but unfortunately life happened. Mom and dad couldn’t tell you the real reason i died , because you were too young to comprehend it. My life then was very painful , and I know you remember sitting waiting for me to get out of pam’s( my counselor’s )office when you were 8 or 9 , but you didn’t know why …. I was very depressed honey , and that and further events that mommy and daddy will tell you about lead me to killing myself so i wouldn’t have to live life anymore. I want you to know that in NO WAY IS THIS YOUR FAULT , and that im sorry i cannot be there. I want you to grow up and live your life not held down by this news. Please don’t be mad at mom and dad , i asked them to conceal all the facts until you get older. I asked kattina to be your big sister now with help from Bridgette and i hope that they have lead you down the right path. I don’t want you to end up like me , broken and unfixable. Be good to mom , and dad… Go to college , don’t get pregnant or have sex before marriage or i will not be a happy ghost… Live life , have fun , and be Good – Love you kid …always have , and always will…
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Your letter to your sister is heartbreaking and beautiful.
Thank you , i wanted her to know that i loved her and that she is not alone – i will always be with her even if im not there phiscally , i will be with her. But she is too young to understand now , so i hope my parents will show it too her later on when she understands or when she gets older…
I’m obviously in disagreement with sadbluesea on one aspect of this.
Yes, it is heart breaking. But I fail to see the beauty in opening up a 12 year old (or however old she will be when she gets the letter) to the world of death and depression.
Maybe if it was given to her at a much later time, when she would be able to comprehend things more maturely. But I don’t think I am the only one who would think that telling a 12 year old that you were depressed and killed yourself wouldn’t have any good repercussions.
I strongly wish this was worded better, for the good of your sister.
I am REALLY sorry if I hit a soft spot here.. but I truly don’t wish for any more people to be brought to this way of thinking in any circumstances. =[
I was told of these things at twelve but i won’t be there to know what she knows so … I included in the full version that my parents may give this to her when ever they feel like she is mature enough …. But i will take your advice and word it a different way or add somethings so she wouldn’t feel as bad , but im only 13 so ill see what i can do…
Don’t.
I wrote this in advanced hun…. i can’t neccesarily say that i wanna… but who knows maybe god will kill me so i don’t have to do the biddings…
I stopped readinq this half way In to readinq It.I have a younq sister to,well that’s an understatement but yeah and I don’t know how to tell my sister either!